Tuesday, May 16, 2017

The mostly finished journal

I have collaged all the spreads in the journal I posted last.  I will include the blank one then the collaged one.  So I will divide this up into a couple of posts at least.







Here is the finished spread.  I came across this quote- so it was on my mind.
When you speak from your
heart and say words your soul has only dared
to whisper, that's when miracles happen.

The chair photo is one I took several years ago when we rented a cabin on the north shore of Lake Superior - I printed it on a book page. That image has such emotion for me.

The next spread is split as this opens into a fold out that I will show next.


i was thinking about a friend that we well use to have when I did this spread.  . We were friends since the early 80s- he's in his 70s and 2 years ago fell down his stairs and had a head injury and then had a severe depression- long story short after several tries he no longer responds and I have seen him with other friends on facebook. So this quote helps some and inspired this spread. "At some point you have to realize that some people can stay in your heart but not in your life. It's in that new journal I made it's 7" X 11". Smaller than I usually work. I printed the faces on pages from old books some old art education books.


This is the first fold out- I loved the long horizontal size.

I love Rumi quotes- I came across this one and I really liked it- for many reasons. I have a book titled The Illuminated Rumi - it is a book of digital collages- at least i think they are digital- anyway they illustrate quotes by Rumi. It came out in 1997. Here is the quote:
Everything in the universe is
Within You. Ask all from yourself. -Rumi
This spread is 7" X 22"


On this spread I used stencils when I Gelli printed it.


I loved this quote and it is so true for me.
People don't always need advice. Sometimes all they need is a hand to hold, an ear to listen, and a heart to understand them.

This is the center of the journal.


This next one is: Trying to Find My Way. Trying to figure out how this is all going to play out.

I will post the last for spreads soon.

 
 

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Spring Seems to finally be here

Here are the next group of journal spreads.  Will will post from where I left off in the last post.  Ron's heart surgery recovery is going slower as get got a bad cold. The coughing is painful with wires holding his breastbone together.  Hope that we don't see anymore snow the 3 inches last week was about more than I could handle.

April 20 at 7:06pm ·
I had fun in the studio today- I will post the backgrounds I did on spreads in this journal. It's a two sewn as one journal closed it's 6" wide x 7" tall. So the two page spreads are 12 x 7 and the fold out is 22 x 7 I made this journal 2 years ago- so now I have backgrounds so it will be fun to work in now.


April 23 at 4:03pm ·
The healing is slow but sure here- We had a backslide here with the weather- snow on the deck this morning and rain/snow mix- good day to be in the studio. Once again a passage from that book, Blessed are the Weird, really inspired me. That and a quote- . Here's the passage:
Art is alchemy. The art that changes us has this power because it first changed the artist. When the artist sits down and begins the process of transmuting raw feelings, scraps of ideas, strands of fear, and visions of what might be into a picture they are engaged in real magic. What comes from that mage's fire is gold.
This quote also stuck with me:
Until you spread your wings you will have no idea how far you can fly.

April 24 at 4:25pm ·
Thank you so much for you comments on my spreads I post here they really do mean so very much to me-. Gloomy day here- Ron woke with a cold so had to cancel cardio rehab today- I headed to the studio while he slept today in hopes of staving it off.
The spread once again is inspired from the book I keep mentioning. I loved this passage so tried to illustrate it on this spread. Here's the passage:
There are moments when the mirror sky cracks above and you see times beyond time, worlds beyond this world. Don't ignore them.


April 26 at 4:14pm ·
Well winter returned here- snow and wind and cold- I shouldn't be surprised as this often happens in April in northern Minnesota. It's only 28 right now.... yes this will pass. Ron has a cold and it so far is a head cold and hope it stays that way as coughing is not good when the breastbone is trying to knit back together. Today i was thinking about a friend that we well use to have. We were friends since the early 80s- he's in his 70s and 2 years ago fell down his stairs and had a head injury and then had a severe depression- long story short after several tries he no longer responds and I have seen him with other friends on facebook. So this quote helps some and inspired this spread. "At some point you have to realize that some people can stay in your heart but not in your life. It's in that new journal I made it's 7" X 11". Smaller than I usually work. I printed the faces on pages from old books some old art education books.

April 27 at 6:40pm ·
I decided today was a day for some fun. I wanted to honor friends in a playful way so I made them have houses for bodies. Good friends are like being home with family so I thought it was a good symbol. There seem to be few men in the journaling world so when I met these guys it was so nice- we are from all over the country- there are 5 of us and we call our little group the Creative Gents. So this is for you guys. I feel like this group- The Stand, is a very special place and much like family. Without my dear friends- making it through Ron's heart surgery would have been very difficult and this group sure helped as well. Here's a nice quote:
Good friends help you to
find important things
when you have lost them...
your smile, your hope,
and your courage.

This is the foldout in that new journal it's 22 inches long. Thank you all for your comments and likes- it really makes me feel so good. This group is a real gift. Thank you Orly.


April 28 at 3:53pm ·
Bright beautiful sun today- bright enough to really melt a lot of the 3 inches of snow we got the other day- saw a lone wild turkey stroll through our yard space- love that. I read this quote and knew I had to do a spread. The quote is by Chief Dan George. I looked him up and he was a very interesting and talented man-an actor and poet. Here is the quote:
May the stars carry your sadness away,
May the flowers fill your heart with beauty,
may hope forever wipe away your tears
and above all,
may silence make you strong.

I wish you all a wonderful weekend. Thank you for your ongoing kindness and support.


April 30 at 5:58pm ·
Had some studio time today. I love Rumi quotes- I came across this one and I really liked it- for many reasons. I have a book titled The Illuminated Rumi - it is a book of digital collages- at least i think they are digital- anyway they illustrate quotes by Rumi. It came out in 1997. Here is the quote:
Everything in the universe is
Within You. Ask all from yourself. -Rumi
This spread is 7" X 22"


April 30 at 6:03pm ·
And I did this smaller one- this spread is 7" x 11'. I loved this quote and it is so true for me.
People don't always need advice. Sometimes all they need is a hand to hold, an ear to listen, and a heart to understand them.
Hope you all have a good week ahead.


May 1 ·
This spread is from another quote and really it is very fitting for today. Ron's cold with cough was not good and we had to go to the clinic. Got some meds for that. Things will be ok. Here's the quote and many of you are familiar with this one.
At any given moment you
have the power to say:
This is NOT how the story is going to end.
I am learning that while I can't fix things like a heart valve or make a cold go away but how I react to these things I do have control over. So instead of taking a dip in the pity pool- I am working on the positive things. He's still here- the surgery was a success and this cold is just a pothole on the healing journey.
Thanks always for your kind remarks on my spreads as I post them-


Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Surgery and Recovery

It has been a long time since I posted- in some ways seems like a year.  Ron had his open heart surgery March 31st.  There have been some big bumps along the way but we are making it- he has his second cardio rehab appointment today.  I am posting the spreads from the he time we got the surgery date until the most recent posts so this will be a big post- I suppose I could break it up but I am just going to do it all- I will try to put the dates with each one. I am including the words I included with each post I did to the journal group.

March 21 at 2:39pm
WE got the call today- Ron will have surgery the 31st- next week! So many emotions. It will be a big surgery - they will be replacing a valve and doing a by-pass. I titled this spread Breathe. I need to work on my breathing anyway- and I need to revisit my mindfulness books. Thank you for your thoughts & prayers. Also thank you for your continued comments on my journal work. Your love and support mean so very much.

March 27 at 4:22pm
This will be my last spread for a while- need to get several things done tomorrow and Wednesday as we head over Thursday. This spread was inspired by one I did in a journal for a class that Brian Kasstle John Arbuckle and I taught on Whidbey Island a couple of years ago- This one is very different from that one but a similar feel. The two men represent Ron and I- we have been together 40 years we met though in 1970 lots of history together- when you are in a long term relationship you see things together your heart is linked and we can finish each others sentences. Through this stressful time he knows when I need to be help or given a hug and the same from me. Thank you all so very much for your love your prayers your words of encouragement - this has brought me to tears again but it is so amazing i just can't thank you all enough. I will give updates as i can. The title is Shared Souls.

April 1 at 4:05pm
Things are coming along-Ron is in a room now out of ICU and most of the tubes are out thank goodness. He took a very short walk today and they want him to do 4 tomorrow. To give you an idea of what an amazing man he is- he's just been through a major surgery and he says how very lucky he is and is so worried about the doctors trying to save people's lives in Syria. Thank you so much and he was so moved by all the comments from this group. So Much Gratitude.


April 2 at 10:13pm
Well time for me to try to finally get some sleep. Thank you all for your loving comments of support. Today was a challenge- got there to the hospital this morning to find that they had not given Ron any pain meds since dinner the night before- the surgeon was there when I arrived and she was angry about that- Ron is hearing impaired and has hearing aids but we think his hearing loss is getting worse...anyway that is on his chart and on the white board in the room- the night nurse missed it as when Ron has his hearing aides out which he does when he is sleeping he can't hear anything. So of course my trust level plummeted. Just thankful I didn't channel my hateful mean mother. It got better as he has been able to take 5 walks today- pain is still an issue but lots of progress today. I got back to my room tonight and i just hit the wall and couldn't stop crying. It will be ok just emotionally exhausted. This spread helped- and some friends from home had called and asked about Ron's food restrictions as they are making some meals for us. Thank you all as I do feel your love and support and I am trying to be good to myself- I am not superman and it is ok for me to lose it a bit I will be there with a smile for him in the morning.

April 6 at 5:02pm
Thank you for all your love and support- I am truly moved- means so very much. My whole sense of time is off these days. It has been a hard time. We got back from the Hospital Tuesday late afternoon. Hard drive but so wonderful to be back home but Ron had a very bad night- and the next morning was not looking good then after lunch he said his heart rate was very erratic and he was lightheaded and was having trouble breathing- so off to ER we went- They were terrific there- the ER nurse was so good and the ER doc was very good- he called the surgeon in Fargo where the surgery was- the drug he is on to keep the heart rate steady needed to be increased- so 2 IVs later and another round of tests and a chest X-ray- we were good to go- 5 hours later. So today was the first full day here and he had a long nap and slept hard he has slept little since surgery- The stress has been more than I have ever experienced- when he went to nap I made sure he was OK and headed to the studio. The spread is inspired by the song Human by Aquilo. I fits in many ways This is on their new album, Silhouette is one that I find myself playing over and over. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=921_CASD4fU

April 12 at 11:00am
The healing process is not a straight line. Some steps ahead and a couple back- I am thankful for this- that he is here and healing. It has made me really stop and look at our time here on this planet in a different way. Have been thinking about all the experiences we have had over the past 40 years together- the joyous ones and the challenging ones- Thinking about that really helped the day of the surgery- giving thanks for the love in my life- truly honoring that time together. So the past helped anchor me into the present- perhaps that sounds odd but it does. Before all of this heart valve stuff was discovered we were focused on the future the plans for the move to New Mexico. That will still happen- but not worried about when- as right now we are in the present and happy for each step forward in the healing process. Thank you all again for your kindness your thoughts your prayers.
This spread is titled: Time Dance



April 14 at 5:34pm
It's a beautiful day here today- really has a spring feel- We were at the clinic today for a lab and the two week check up- that went very well- things are healing and he was able to stop one of the meds. cardio rehab starts Monday. So for sure on the mend. This spread is: The Measure Of Healing. It takes time- patience is hard sometimes but it is happening- getting a good report helps lift the spirits which in turn helps with the healing. I wish you all a wonderful weekend.


Today's spread was inspired by a passage I read in the book I am reading right now- I LOVE this book. Blessed are the Weird: A Manifesto for Creatives by Jacob Norby. Ron can't drive yet so while he had his cardio rehab today I read and this passage just really thrilled me. It's long but read it if you have time.
You know that crazy heart of yours? The one with the lightning crackling and moon light shining through it. The one you have been told not to trust because it often led you off the beaten path, the one so many have misunderstood your entire life.
Trust it. Feed it. Grow it.
It is your greatest treasure and will point the way to your highest destiny. It is the voice of your soul.

The spread is titled Crazy Heart.


18 hrs April 18
This spread is inspired once again from that book,Blessed are the Weird: A Manifesto for Creatives by Jacob Norby. I will share the passage at the end. There is a wonderful reference to weaving. Weaving is such a wonderful metaphor for many things. Once upon a time I did some weaving and found it to be relaxing and I taught it to my 6th graders when I was teaching elementary art. This is the passage that inspired this spread I titled Imagination Loom. He says just painting but I know it holds for all art forms- journaling, drawing printing collage and so on.
Artists who use paint to show us the world through their eyes are magicians. They are weavers who pull threads from their surroundings and from within themselves and use the looms of their imagination to weave something greater than a mere copy of what they are using as a subject.








Wednesday, March 22, 2017

Recent Journal spreads

There are the most recent journal spreads I made in the last week or so.  Once again the copy is what I wrote when I shared them with the journal group.  This time I will start with the oldest to the newest-  and will include the dates.


March 16 at 3:18pm
Thank you for all the good thoughts and prayers- . We got not good news from the angiogram yesterday. Ron will need to have open heart surgery to replace a valve. We hope to have our consultation with the surgeon next week - the doctor yesterday said this is not an emergency but needs to be done soon as possible. So we hope the surgery will be scheduled soon after that- long recovery. Moving plans on hold. So today's spread is dealing with that- The title is: I don't Feel Like Making Lemonade.



March 17 at 3:25pm
Ok you are fair warned this is a rant- for the people that said I am just gloom and doom well it is looking more and more like what is happening. Trumpcare will kill people plain and simple. Before it was legal for Ron and I to get married i couldn't carry him on my insurance and and he had cancer- the expensive insurance that he did have with a 15 thousand deductible was suddenly dropped he had cancer they didn't want him anymore- it was before The affordable care was passed and they couldn't deny you with a pre-existing condition. - he finally found someone that would insure him for 4 thousand a month with a 12 thousand deductible. I say make the members of congress have what they are suggesting for the rest of the country. Buit then most are already millionaires so they could still pay for it-
And taking away meals on wheels- WTF? My mother-in-law was able to stay in her home because she received meals on wheels and didn't have to cook because she could no longer Ron and I paid for it but I mean how cruel- and not I just read free lunch at school for kids that can't afford it isn't worth it. Who are these monsters- where is the humanity- gone from our government. This spread is about the worry about health care.




March 19 at 2:26pm
I have been mulling over something that someone here said to me a while back- that I just talk about gloom and doom- well sometimes it really does seem like that's what it is in this country now-I know there are many wonderful things and this group certainly is one of those wonderful things. Seeing your expressions here feed my soul- I love seeing your wonderful works from happy ones to the serious. The collective energy from this group is the medicine that will get us through these times. I was thinking about the tale of Chicken Little. Many of you know that one- (well maybe the older ones like me LOL) The Sky is Falling The Sky is Falling- In the tale chicken little was wrong it was just an acorn hitting his head- but I do fear with the current plans to destroy the EPA that the sky very well may be falling- I care deeply for this country and for the environment world-wide. We need to stop the madness or the world will not be fit for the grand children to live in.




Keep Knocking and the joy inside will eventually open a window and look out to see who's there. Rumi
That is the quote for this spread. I do have to knock pretty hard sometimes but I do still have joy.





March 21  at 2:39pm
WE got the call today- Ron will have surgery the 31st- next week! So many emotions. It will be a big surgery - they will be replacing a valve and doing a by-pass. I titled this spread Breathe. I need to work on my breathing anyway- and I need to revisit my mindfulness books. Thank you for your thoughts & prayers. Also thank you for your continued comments on my journal work. Your love and support mean so very much.




Tuesday, March 14, 2017

More Journal Work

I am trying to keep sane with the health issues here- (my husband's angiogram is tomorrow) and the very scary things happening in Washington. I am going the include the copy for each spread that I  wrote for the journal group.  Orly Avineri's group A Stand for Art Journaling  is a wonderful supportive place to share  journal work. So the references to comments and such were to that group.
The spreads will  go from newest to oldest and were done in the last week.


This is my spread from this afternoon- Some of you have asked about some images that reappear in my journal work. I like many of you I am sure- am drawn to certain things and use images of them a lot- collect pictures of them. The house - house shape- is big as I find it important to me- some people have stayed in their area where they grew up but we have kept moving around-we are hoping to move to the SW if we get the good news we hope on Wednesday after my husband's angiogram. Anyway the house shape is a symbol of warmth- safety- nest. I also use windows chairs and birds a lot- they all have different meanings for me- it's like my vocabulary- these inconagraphical (is that a word?) images I have used for decades really. Anyway this spread is called Discontented Man.. It is hard to feel contented in these current times- we all try to go about our lives but there it is on our mind- and that added to waiting on a medical test- well it is hard to find an easy chair or to stay seated.
 
 
 
 
Today was productive- well in the studio- I guess the house work can wait. I had some fun and this cold is getting better. I a couple of years ago took a beginning class on Sketchbook Skool- Danny Gregory started that. I use to draw a lot- then fell out of the habit- I am feeling the need to do more again. This spread was taking drawings I already had and scanned I printed some out and cut them out. The drawing I did of myself is a contour drawing.


I want to first thank you all for the supportive comments- I realize some found my spread to be a bit much but sometimes that's exactly how things now feel more than a bit too much. Your comments mean the world to me. Here is a quote that inspired today's spread.
When you come to the edge of all you know, you must believe one of two things: either there will be ground to stand on, or you will be given wings to fly. O.R. Melling.
Given the times not so sure about ground to stand on but I am very honest when I say this group has given me wings. Thank you all so much.


I am so angry that I can hardly think straight- seeing the rising hate- families tore apart deported, people that were born here not allow back in- This government has turned this into the United States of Rejection. Replacing the health plan it their version that pads the rich and makes it out of reach for so many- and the arts- We are in sorry shape. I just can't wrap my head around how they can be so cruel and gut everything unless it will make them money. Hate groups have been emboldened. I just watched a very scary news video of one group excited for the liberal genocide to begin. It is hard to keep the dream of a loving nation alive. So I did this spread it helped for a while. So very thankful for this group- an artful loving sanctuary The United States of Rejection.


This spread is called Dream Construction. I was thinking about how we can make our dreams into reality sometimes- One has to make the dream as real as possible in your head- I think many of us are doing that- dreaming of an end this nightmare in the country. I am also dreaming about a new neighborhood in New Mexico. It's March 9th and our actual temp for tonight is to be 14 below zero- windchills they say will be 30 below-


Well I will try to not write book here but this spread today was very cathartic for me. Things sometimes get to be a bit much sometimes- many of you have major challenges as I have read about some of them. I have come down with a really bad cold- I haven't had a cold in years and this one is a doosy. Things seem to have really gotten even more insane in Washington. So worried for my friends that depend on The affordable care act. We had a lab today- I am amazed that my lipid panel was all in normal range- Ron has the angiogram next Wednesday fingers crossed. Then we will know if we are able to resume plans to move. I did this spread in a Dylsions journal with black pages. The chair is a dollhouse chair that I set on a hosta leave- I did a whole photo shoot in Minneapolis of dollhouse furniture in the garden we had. Just came across some of those. This quote is for this spread:
Some days you just need to jump into the vortex and let the universe do its job.


Today was a very gloomy day here- fog drifting in and out- I don't do well with this kind of day- and Ron is sick with a cold and we are hoping he will be better for the appointment at the clinic Wednesday. I needed to write today so filled the background with writing- lots to process. I need to lose weight to help with my overall health and cholesterol. This has been a battle forever- at age 64 one would think I would have it together but I will once again and have lost 12 pounds in the last month. With the craziness in the country right now and this health stuff it has been a challenge as my way to cope has bee to self-medicate with food. So far so good- the body in the spread is an ideal and I have never had that- needing to be realistic -   Update as of March 14th- I have now lost 15 pounds!